“There were times when I thought about committing suicide by overdosing on pills or driving off of a bridge with my car. I even contemplated shooting myself, but I was afraid of guns. I thought if I just took my life, it would end all of my pain. I think the only reason that I didn't go through with it was because I didn't think I would be forgiven, and I loved my daughter and didn't want to leave her without a mother.”